Challenges, Podcast, Priorities

What (little ‘g’) gods Are You Worshipping in Your Marriage?

It’s all too easy to pay lip service to Jesus in life and marriage, but live as if he’s not King. In this episode of the Fierce Marriage Podcast, we recapped lessons we’ve learned from the past few weeks since the arrival of our 3rd daughter. God graciously allowed us to realize areas of our lives that we can tend to enthrone in a place of undue authority. We talked about the (little ‘g’) gods of control/power, status/pride, and (this is a big one we tend to worship all too quickly) comfort/pleasure. We hope you learn something new!

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Scripture, Show Notes, and Resources Mentioned

  • [00:10:01]
    • Scripture reference: Exodus 20:3, ESV
    • Scripture reference: Exodus 32:1, paraphrase, ESV
    • Scripture reference: Exodus 32:2-5, paraphrase, ESV
  • [00:14:40]
    • Scripture reference: Romans 1:18-20, paraphrase with added emphasis, ESV
  • [00:19:59]
    • Scripture reference: Hebrews 4:12, paraphrase, ESV
    • Scripture reference: Hebrews 4:13, paraphrase, ESV
    • Information on Charles Haddon Spurgeon:
  • [00:24:44]
    • Scripture reference: John 1:1, paraphrase, ESV
  • [00:34:58]
    • Scripture reference: Psalm 147:10-11, ESV
    • Scripture reference: Jeremiah 9:23-24, ESV
  • [00:39:55]
  • [00:45:08]
    • Scripture reference: Psalm 127:1-5, ESV

Full Episode Transcript

[00:00:00] Selena: So, we are back.

Ryan: We’re back!

Selena: Post baby.

Ryan: [Laughs] Sorry, that was a little loud.

Selena: We got— I know you want energy. I was working on it and then you

just—

Ryan: I was loud. [Laughing]

Selena: Barge right in. [Both laughing] Someone’s excited. Someone’s excited 

here.

Ryan: It’s been a while since we’ve recorded a–

Selena: Yes! [Both together] Podcast episode. [Selena resumes solo] About four 

weeks [Selena chuckles] exactly.

Ryan: Yeah. Although listeners may not have known– I’m sure we did mention 

it as we [Selena chuckling] had the back kind of– We recorded extra

episodes knowing that the baby was coming.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: And I think we mentioned that. But…

Selena: We did! So, we now have a baby.

Ryan: The baby was born!

Selena: Another baby. Louisa Hope Kay Frederick.

Ryan: Yes!

Selena: Was born 11 days early, on October 7th. [Laughs] Biggest baby!

Ryan: Yeah!

Selena: And she’s healthy. We’re good. She is actually laying right over here—

Ryan: Oh!

Selena: Next to us. So, we have our one and only fan here. [Laughs]

Ryan: We are– It’s November 7th as we’re recording this.

Selena: Yes.

Ryan: So, she’s a month-old today!

Selena: A month old today!

Ryan: Yaaay!

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: So, where’s her name come from real quick? [Baby coos in background

Oop! There she is.

Selena: And you’ll hear her. This is… We’re getting real life here a bit people. 

Her name came from one of my favorite authors, Louisa May Alcott. It 

may be pronounced “Lou-essa,” but we call our daughter “Lou-eesa.” 

She wrote Little Women, Little Men, all of those things.

Ryan: Mm-hm.

Selena: So, one of my favorite authors, some of my favorite stories. So!

Ryan: And Hope is just kind of a faith based. Obviously, it’s from–

Selena: Yes.

Ryan: Our hope in Christ.

Selena: Yes. ‘Cause–

Ryan: And, then…

Selena: All of our girls have [Baby crying in background] grace, faith, and then 

hope. Those are all their middle names.

Ryan: Like, grace alone, through faith alone, in Christ alone.

Selena: There she is!

Ryan: We couldn’t name her Louisa Christ Kay [Selena laughs] Frederick. [Ryan

chuckles] Sorry. Selena’s now picking up Louisa. Anyway! So, we do have 

hope in Christ. So, we’re big on by grace alone, through faith alone, in 

Christ alone, being that our hope is in Christ. And then Kay is actually 

your mother’s middle name.

Selena: Yeah, we do have a… family name!

Ryan: And a family name.

Selena: Family name. Sorry.

Ryan: Yeah.

Selena: Away from the mic there.

Ryan: You got to use the microphone that we…

Selena: Family name.

Ryan: We still have to do that. Anyway. Now Louisa’s here with us. So, 

anyway, listener, thank you for your patience! Today we’re going to talk 

about some things we’ve been learning over the last month, namely, 

what little “g” gods are you worshiping in your marriage? And this 

question became painfully clear to us [Selena laughs] as we realized… 

babies have a way of kind of…

Selena: Sanctifying you [Ryan laughs], bringing out the little gods in you.

Ryan: They have a way of kind of rocking the boat.

Selena: Yes! In a good way.

Ryan: Shaking things up in a really positive way.

Selena: Yes.

Ryan: Anyway. It’s great to be back and we can’t for— we can’t look— we 

can’t— [Ryan laughs] It’s great!

Selena: Stay with us people! Hang on.

Ryan: Yeah. We will see on the other side.

[00:02:26] *Intro Sequence*

[00:02:58] Selena: That was a long frontside.

Ryan: It was a long one!

Selena: [Laughs] It’s alright, though.

Ryan: Yeah. This episode’s going to me a little bit different. So, full disclaimer 

is, again, we’re getting back in the saddle here. [Selena laughs] We 

haven’t recorded for four weeks; that’s after having recorded multiple 

times a week for [Selena laughs] the last almost two years.

Selena: Yes. Yes.

Ryan: So, we’re a little bit… I don’t want to say we’re rusty, but we definitely 

want to, I think, take some time to kind of warm up and catch up, 

because there’s been a lot that’s happened in our life. Not only the baby 

being born, which has been phenomenal.

Selena: Mm-hm.

Ryan: She’s been just incredible; that’s created a whole bunch of new… things 

to learn, having three daughters now. How do the other two daughters take to her? Which they’re incredible.

Selena: Mm-hm. Yeah!

Ryan: They’re great big sisters!

Selena: Yeah. They’re transitioning. We’re seeing some pains kind of here and 

there.

Ryan: They’re finding their place [Selena laughs] in the birth order. [Both 

laugh] Our oldest–.

Selena: [Chuckling] Join in the team here. Yeah.

Ryan: Our oldest is definitely excited to be the oldest, but also feels the pain 

of being the oldest and kind of being—

Selena: And also brings out the attitude of being the oldest. [Laughs]

Ryan: And the attitude, yes. And she’s about to be six.

Selena: Yes.

Ryan: So, that’s a thing.

Selena: So, pray for us. But—

Ryan: But also, we’ve finished edits.

Selena: Yeah…

Ryan: So, all in that last time.

Selena: All these babies are born. [Ryan laughs and Selena chuckling] Being 

born.

Ryan: My goodness! So, our book that’s coming out in May is called See 

Through Marriage. We had the edits finally submitted to our publisher. 

They had been so patient and gracious with us as the baby arrived earlier than we had planned. And that’s been fun!

Selena: Yeah. If she would have came on our due date, we probably would have 

been done. ‘Cause I’m sure it would have taken 11 days. [Laughing]

Ryan: That’s my story and I’m sticking to it.

Selena: [Chuckling] That’s my story.

Ryan: And so, we did that. I’m also currently working on finals for seminary, 

which is amazing and taxing. But I also fell behind on classes and reading 

and sent– What are they called? The videos!

Selena: Videos…

Ryan: What are those called? I don’t know. Lectures! Yeah, there they are. 

Selena: [Laughs] There’s the word.

Ryan: There’s the word. So, I’ve fallen behind, and so I had to catch up. I’m 

catching up on that, and I have to submit that in the very near future.

Selena: Yep.

Ryan: Also, I’ve been making a ton of bread.

Selena: Literally.

Ryan: I’ve, yeah.

Selena: We’ve been watching The Great British Baking Show. [Ryan laughs

Because our kids actually really enjoy watching it.

[00:05:01] Ryan: Yeah.

Selena: And we like watching it, and we’re learning a lot. So, he’s been making 

bread, literally, for the past month. [Laughs]

Ryan: Well, okay. So, I’m not a bandwagon show watcher, right? The thing is, 

is their–

Selena: It’s okay to watch a show and not be [Inaudible].

Ryan: In one of the first episodes– Well, but I’m not like, “Oh! I’m all into 

baking!” Honestly, I don’t want to say could care less, but I don’t care as 

much about cupcakes and sponge cakes and [Selena laughs] things like 

that. The thing is, is they had a bread episode.

Selena: Yes.

Ryan: And one of the guys on the episode said, “Yeah,” as he was making it, 

they were kind of interviewing him and he said, “Yeah, this is just kind of 

the typical loaf that I’d make for our family, and it’s just the one that I 

always make.” And I thought to myself, “We need a Frederick Loaf.”

Selena: [Chuckling] Frederick family loaf. 

Ryan: [Laughing] That’s–

Selena: It’s just great.

Ryan: We’ve got enough loafers [Selena laughs]; I know that! You’re a loafer.

Selena: [Laughing] Right?

Ryan: And interlopers. [Ryan snickers] But we needed a Frederick family loaf. 

And so, over the last four weeks, I probably made how many loaves? I don’t want to exaggerate. I want to say in the teens.

Selena: [Laughs] That’s probably accurate.

Ryan: Yeah. I want to say in the teens, and you know what? I think I found it! I 

think I found the Frederick family loaf. It’s a five seated– I want to call it 

the Five Sola bread, ’cause, you know, we’re good formed people.

Selena: Five Sola. [Laughing]

Ryan: Sola, you know, the Five Solas.

Selena: Nice.

Ryan: But there’s five different seeds in it. It’s super seedy and semi-sweet, a 

lot like my wife. [Laughs]

Selena: It’s, “Oh, what a treat!”.

Ryan: [Ryan laughs] It’s, “Oh, what a treat.” [Selena laughs] But it’s good! You 

know what? Write in. Write in if you’re a bread fan [Selena laughs], and 

leave a question, and if you feel so inclined maybe put your address and 

I might send a loaf of bread your way. [Laughs]

Selena: Which leads us to our [Chuckling] housekeeping.

Ryan: Oh, yeah.

Selena: We might need more patrons to…

Ryan: Patreons.

Selena: Patrons. [Both laughing] To help us supply the bread needs here. But…

Ryan: Okay. Yeah. So, I’ll make it really fast. By the way, thank you Patreon 

supporters. You guys have just really been such a blessing. We’ve shared 

a lot more, the baby happenings, on our patreon page.

Selena: Mm-hm.

Ryan: Which is patreon.com/fiercemarriage. And, basically, we just kind of

asking for prayer as we went into labor. Also shared pictures [Chuckles], 

like the day after…

Selena: Not like birth story pictures.

Ryan: Well, of course.

Selena: These are just, like…

Ryan: Videos.

Selena: “Oh, here’s a baby!”

Ryan: I was wearing a GoPro. [Selena chuckles] And here’s what happened.

Selena: [Both laughing] No! [Ryan laughing] Nope, sorry.

Ryan: “It was a war zone!”

Selena: We are not those people.

Ryan: It was intense. But anyway, I didn’t share those pictures. But anyway! A 

lot of prayers through that. And so, it’s been a blessing to us, not just on the financial side, but on the co-traveling side of it.

Selena: Mm-hm. Mm-hm!

Ryan: So, if you want to be a part of that community, and really it is becoming 

a community and it’s on its own.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: And be on mission with Fierce Marriage, with Ryan and Selena 

Frederick, with the people that we’ve partnered with here.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: In terms of Carrie and all the lovely people that work with us.

Selena: Mm-hm.

Ryan: Carrie does all the shipping. If you’ve ever gotten books, Carrie’s the one 

shipping that out.

Selena: Yes!

Ryan: She’s incredible! You can be a part of that! And the way you do that is 

you go to patreon.com/fiercemarriage. We just ask two things. The first 

thing is that we ask that you pray about it. We don’t want you just to 

make a knee-jerk decision or anything that’s— We want you to pray 

about it and be on a mission, heart and soul, husband and wife unified 

together in that. And if you pray about it and God leads you to it, then 

we just ask the second thing is that you just act on it, and you can act $2

a month, $5 a month on up.

Selena: Mm-hm.

Ryan: Whatever you can do, it’s a blessing. However God leads you, it’s a 

blessing. Secondly…

Selena: Thank you to all our listeners, our raters and reviewers. If you have not 

left a rating or review, take a few seconds to do that, ‘cause it does not 

take long! And it makes a huge difference, and we appreciate it. And I 

think—

Ryan: Agreed!

Selena: Potential listeners appreciate it as well!

Ryan: Agreed.

Selena: Also, if you hear anything that prompts a question, please ask. And you 

can do that by calling or texting 971-333-1120. There’s also a form, I 

believe, on our website: Fiercemarriage.com/podcasts. There’s a— 

Ryan: There’s a button there. Yep!

Selena: A button there to ask a question. So, do that!

Ryan: If you’re a button person.

Selena: If you’re a button person. [Both chuckle] And… Yeah. I guess, thanks to 

our community for supporting us. We actually got a gift in the mail from 

some listener’s—

Ryan: Yeah! Oh, my word.

Selena: From the Holvick family. They’re from Newberg, Oregon, and they gave 

us— I believe she made these blankets.

Ryan: They’re phenomenal.

Selena: Some beautiful baby blankets. And we love them! They’re soft and I like 

the patterns! It’s great! It was so thoughtful! They sent us a card. 

They’re always praying for us. And so, we’re super grateful.

Ryan: Can I just say, I have felt more loved by the body of Christ, our local 

church body, but also the body global

Selena: Mm-hm.

Ryan: Through this last four or five weeks of our lives. I’ve never felt more 

loved, more tangibly loved.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: I’ve always kind of known that we’re loved.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: Just because by virtue of being brothers and sisters in Christ…

Selena: But I think when we stop doing something, we can feel our love…

Ryan: Like it wanes. [Laughs]

Selena: Yes! [Both laughing] That people that love us might not love us as much.

Ryan: Out of sight, out of mind.

Selena: Right?!

Ryan: Yeah.

Selena: ‘Cause we had so linked to that doing verses being.

Ryan: But, like the meal train, right? So, we’re members at a church and they 

sent out a member email. They’re like, “Hey! Welcome baby Louisa 

Frederick into the family. Here’s a meal train link if you want to be part 

of it.”

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: We ate amazing meals that we didn’t have to make.

[00:10:01] Selena: Apparently, still there’s more coming, so…

Ryan: Yes! [Selena chuckles] Alright.

Selena: They were counting on her being a little bit later baby. So, we’ll see! 

[Laughs]

Ryan: And you know what? We haven’t gotten any spaghetti. [Both chuckle]

Selena: Stop.

Ryan: Usually you get so much spaghetti on those things.

Selena: Right. But one friend makes really good spaghetti meatballs, and that’s… 

all I got to say about it. So…

Ryan: Alright. Well…

Selena: Anyways. Moving on!

Ryan: So, today’s topic. [Selena laughs] Thank you so much already, if you’ve 

made it this far. [Selena laughs] Thank you, awesome listeners.

Selena: We’re excited to be here! I think we’re indulging a little bit here. 

[Laughs]

Ryan: We are. We are! We’re being selfish.

Selena: But yes!

Ryan: Speaking of being selfish… [Laughing] That’s what we’re talking about 

today.

Selena: Yes! That’s kind of, basically, what we’re talking about today. So, we 

were sitting there talking to each other about what is something that is 

relevant in our hearts and what’s God been teaching us through these 

last couple weeks. And, basically, we’ve titled this thing, “What Little

Gods Are You Worshipping?” “What Little ‘g’ Gods Are You 

Worshipping?”

Ryan: Mm.

Selena: So… I don’t think we’ve, you know, we’re not bowing down to comfort 

and pleasure, but in other ways we functionally are bowing to things.

We’re giving them power, we’re sacrificing for them, we are looking at

them and idolizing them versus God and His ways in our lives. So… Yeah.

Ryan: I want to take a moment. And so, this idea of a little “g” god…

Selena: Right. Right.

Ryan: It has some different contexts for us in our culture versus when we see, 

“You shall have no other gods before me.”

Selena: Yes.

Ryan: We see that an Exodus, when the Ten Commandments and those sorts 

of things. And so, we’re making a correlation there that I think is, on its 

surface, it’s very obvious, but, I think, below the surface it’s even more 

deeply [Baby begins cooing in background] connected than we often 

realize.

There she is. By the way, she’s been really grunty.

Selena: She baby squeaks here. Sorry.

Ryan: She’s a squeaker. [Selena laughs] So, what do we mean by that, these 

little “g” gods? So, one story that came to mind as we were thinking 

through this is in Exodus 32, the golden calf, right?

Selena: Mm-hm.

Ryan: There’s something in us, as people, as fallen human beings who have 

this sense of the divine, this sense that we need God in our lives, that 

God is alive, that God is real. There’s something in us that rails against 

That, right? So, in Exodus 32, that’s where Moses is up on Mount Sinai. 

He’s getting commands from God, and all the Israelites are— Not very 

long, I don’t know how many days exactly, but not very long—

Selena: Mm. Yeah.

Ryan: Went by, not very many days went by, and they were just like, “Oh, no! 

We need a god to serve,” like, “We need another god!” And so, they all 

start talking to Aaron, and they’re like, “Aaron, we need a god to serve.” 

He says, “Alright! Well give me all your bracelets and the earrings out of 

your wives’ ears, and…”

Selena: Which, if there’s any indicator for us being created to worship, 

[Chuckles] I think that’s…

Ryan: Yeah! And so, he takes all this gold…

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: And then he crafts this golden calf, and they start worshipping it. And 

what does it say? [Laughs quietly] I had it up; I got to pull it up again. 

But it’s saying, let’s see here, Exodus 32… Yeah. So, “When people saw 

that Moses delayed to come down from the mountain,” so, he delayed, 

“the people gathered themselves together to Aaron and said to him, 

‘Up, make us gods who shall go before us. As for this Moses, the man 

who brought us up out of the land of Egypt, we do not know what has 

become of him.’” So, they’re panicking. Fear has set in!

Selena: Moses didn’t text them back. [Both laugh]

Ryan: Yeah. He left them on red. [Selena laughs] And so, Aaron said to them—

Like, Aaron, I just think he’s [Ryan chuckles] just along for the ride at this 

point, [Selena chuckles] which to me is hilarious. But, “So Aaron said to 

them, ‘Take off the rings of gold that are in the ears of your wives, your 

sons, and your daughters, and bring them to me.’ So all the people took 

off the rings of gold that were in their ears and brought them to Aaron. 

And he received the gold from their hand and fashioned it with a 

graving tool and made a golden calf.” This is the part that gets me. All 

right? He said, “And they said, ‘These are your gods, O Israel, who 

brought you up out of the land of Egypt!’ When Aaron saw this, he built 

an altar before it. And Aaron made a proclamation and said, ‘Tomorrow 

shall be the feast to the LORD.’” [Snickers] I don’t know what is going on 

here! [Laughing]

Selena: Well, they’re attributing godly actions and worship to gods that they 

want to make.

Ryan: Right.

Selena: So, they’re creating their own worship and giving the attributes, I feel 

like, to this fake god. But they’re giving attributes of the God of Israel to 

these things!

Ryan: Right. And so, they—

Selena: Which is even more distressing. [Laughs]

Ryan: They had a moment of fear and panic.

Selena: Yes.

Ryan: And they needed something to set their fear and panic at ease. And so, 

they said, “Give us a god who can go before us. Let’s craft it with our 

own hands.”

Selena: Right.

Ryan: And here, these are the people that have seen, that were literally part 

of the exodus, right?

Selena: [Inaudible]

Ryan: The crossing of the Red Sea, the plagues, all the miracles, you know, the 

bread, and…

Selena: The pillar of fire.

Ryan: Yeah. And the unleavened bre— or whatever, the manna from Heaven.

Selena: Yeah.

[00:14:40] Ryan: Their sandals and all this stuff they hadn’t worn out. They had seen so 

many miracles, day in and day out, and here they are… panicking. Right? 

And so, you got to wonder. What is in us, as people, that would cause us 

to do this. And I think of Romans. That made me think of Romans 1, 

right? Where it says, “For the wrath of God is revealed from heaven 

against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men, who by their 

unrighteousness suppress the truth.” And, “What can be known about 

God is plain to them, because God has shown it to them. For his

invisible attributes, namely, his eternal power and divine nature, have 

been clearly perceived, ever since the creation of the world, in the 

things that have been made.” And get this, “So they are without 

excuse.” So, all that to say is we, as people, have this sense of His

reality. So much so Paul says we are without excuse. And so, but we 

have, in our own righteous—We can. This is talking about the wrath on 

the unrighteous, so unregenerate non-believers. But we have in us this

sinful nature that wants to suppress truth and unrighteousness.

Selena: Mm.

Ryan: So, any time we talk about a little “g” god, we are effectively, in fear, in 

anxiety, in pain, in discomfort, turning to anything else that goes against 

who the one true, real God. Like, why do they not turn away from their 

golden calf at that moment?

Selena: Mm-hm.

Ryan: Why did they turn away from the one true God?

Selena: Right.

Ryan: And I think sin is the answer.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: So, we do this in our lives. [Laughs]

Selena: We do this in our lives.

Ryan: So, that’s a big—

Selena: And how does this sort of play out in our marriages I think is the biggest 

thing, because having a baby definitely [Chuckles] causes some fear 

and discomfort—

Ryan: Thank you. Yes!

Selena: I think, in some ways.

Ryan: Yes.

Selena: And so, you know, we’ve been, Ryan and I personally, have been 

confronted with our own desires, right? There’s this desire [Selena 

chuckles] for sleep and rest. [Both chuckle] And those are not bad 

things! Are we yelling at kids so that we can sleep? Maybe! Nah, I’m 

[Selena chuckles] kidding.

Ryan: Yeah.

Selena: But like, you know what I’m saying? There’s things that we’re 

compromising sometimes to get what we think we need.

Ryan: Mm.

Selena: And that’s where I think it calls to question what are we worshipping, 

what are we striving for, what do we want?

Ryan: And in what are—

Selena: And that we’re not having.

Ryan: In whom or in what are we placing our ultimate trust?

Selena: Our trust. Absolutely. Absolutely.

Ryan: And our ultimate affections. And our ultimate desire.

Selena: Right. So…

Ryan: Yeah.

Selena: So, defining some of these things, these areas that we might “worship,” 

or things, again, that we might sacrifice for, or that we feel like we need 

instead of God. So, turning to these things. And I think the biggest one, 

again, that we’re starting with, and I think for most people who can 

identify with, is comfort and pleasure.

Ryan: Mm.

Selena: You know, we kind of do whatever it takes to maintain that level of

comfort we want. We’re not willing to compromise or serve our spouse 

or our kids or our family if it infringes on our time and energy and 

resources, right? We ultimately want everything for ourselves, and 

we’re going to kind of rely on ourselves for that, I think, in a lot of ways.

Ryan: Mm.

Selena: And I think some examples of this—These are just personals [Selena 

laughs]. So… Here is my life. [Ryan laughs] But Bible reading. You know, 

right now, I don’t feel like I have tons of time to do that. I mean, yeah, I 

do it when I’m nursing, but then that’s like in the dark at two in the 

morning, and I feel like not much is being [Selena laughs] retained. But 

not having time or being challenged by the messages we’re reading or 

hearing if there’s scripture, that is uncomfortable to us. [Selena 

chuckles] It’s not always fun to read your Bible, and exciting and 

wonderful, right?

Ryan: Mm.

Selena: But it is necessary. Watching shows, getting on the screens, you know? 

[Laughs] The screens… [Laughing]

Ryan: The screens.

Selena: [Laughing] I’m sorry!

Ryan: Well, I think… So, I want to be clear here. There’s a time, right, after 

having Louisa—

Selena: Absolutely!

Ryan: That we were like, “Okay. We just need to hunker down.” I love that.

Selena: Yes.

Ryan: The visual. Like, we’re just hunkered down as a family.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: We’re dead to the world.

Selena: Right. Not getting up and going, doing the same routine a day later.

Ryan: And that we are just, in our four walls, and only our close friends and 

family are coming in to visit, and we are just in family recovery mode.

Selena: Just serve and love on us. Yeah. Yeah. Absolutely.

Ryan: And that means a lot of walks around the neighborhood with the girls.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: A lot of playing in their rooms.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: A lot of watching cartoons together. [Selena chuckles] A lot of making 

bread in the kitchen.

Selena: Playing games.

Ryan: And letting the girls help with that.

Selena: Yes. Yes.

Ryan: And a lot of, and granted, it depends on your own life situation; not 

every man can take time off. I took some time off from Fierce Marriage 

and from everything else. Hopefully you can take some time off, ‘cause 

it’s such a sweet time!

Selena: Right. Right.

Ryan: But, so there’s that sense of, “Okay. It’s okay to watch some things.”

Selena: Right! And, but I think…

Ryan: But there’s a moment, I think, where we know in our guts that maybe 

that switching.

Selena: Well, that pattern is becoming too much. And I think one of the 

indicators is that when we’re living our lives just to kind of make it to 

the next time we get to watch a show, that’s, you know, you’re just kind 

of living for the…

Ryan: That’s an addiction!

Selena: From the moment—

Ryan: That’s classic addiction.

Selena: Right. Right. And so, I think we have to be aware of that! And we have 

to bring people into our circle and say, “Hey, you know, this is what I’m 

struggling with,” or, “This is what I feel like,” and I was very transparent 

with Ryan about some of the feelings I was feeling when people would 

send me basic texts. [Chuckles] And I’d be like, “I can’t do this. I don’t

want that. And I feel really angry.” [Laughs briefly] And I’m like, “I’m 

pretty sure these are all pregnancy hormones, but can you please help 

me see this more clearly?” You know? And walking through that 

together.

Ryan: Mm.

[00:19:59] Selena: And so, there was a lot of discomfort and things that I didn’t like, but 

was it something that was real or was it something that I was 

making up, and how was I dealing with it, I guess, was a bigger 

question?

Ryan: I think what really tangible way that this plays out in a husband’s life is 

sexually.

Selena: Mm-hm.

Ryan: In terms of comfort and pleasure.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: Right? After a woman has a child, you’re out of commission… sexually 

and traditional sexual manners… [Both laugh] I’ll say that.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: There’s some healing that has to hap—

Selena: Right.

Ryan: A lot of healing has to happen. [Selena chuckles] And that takes time.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: Six weeks is the minimum.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: And so…

Selena: In other cultures, it’s longer. [Chuckles]

Ryan: Well, and it might need to be for us, too.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: And I think that’s something that, you know, we joke. Like, it’s been… 

what? It’s been 20… 30 days. 30, 31 days and seven hours [Selena 

chuckles and Ryan laughs] since the last time you and I were able to be 

intimate in that way, and we joke and be like, “Alright! Well, six weeks is 

coming up, so I hope you’re ready!” You know? But I have to reassure 

you, like, “Hey, [Both laugh] we’ll take this step by step. Don’t feel 

expectation.”

Selena: Right. Right.

Ryan: But that’s been a great opportunity where, as a husband, to serve you 

and not pressure you or make you feel guilty or in any way make you 

feel that pain, in a way that is—

Selena: Right.

Ryan: That you don’t already feel. As my wife, you already take that on.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: And there’s a sense that we want to connect, and there are other ways 

to connect sexually during this time.

Selena: Right. Right.

Ryan: And I do mean sexually; it’s not like you just all the sudden ignore each 

other.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: Physical affection is completely dead for six weeks.

Selena: Right. It’s not an excuse to just be like, “Well, we’re not going to do 

that!” [Laughs]

Ryan: But if a husband is selfish in this time, it can…

Selena: There’s ways you can make your wife pay for feeling that.

Ryan: Mm-hm.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: And so, and I just want to bring it back to the whole Aaron thing, the 

golden calf thing, and the Romans 1 thing, meaning that if I take my 

own desire, my fear of not being fulfilled, my comfort being sacrificed,

and I take that and that’s the god that I’m serving, that’s my golden calf, 

and I’ve already forgotten this miracle that is my wife, okay? The 

miracle that is our new baby, the miracle that it is this life that God has 

given us, the salvation he’s given us in Christ—

Selena: Right.

Ryan: First and foremost. I forget all that stuff.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: I forget all the things that God has done.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: And now, all the sudden, I’m worshipping this small “g” god of my 

own comfort, my own pleasure. 

Selena: Right.

Ryan: Then there’s going to be sacrifices that are going to be made.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: And those sacrifices—

Selena: Are usually like… [Chuckles]

Ryan: Are usually your wife.

Selena: At the expense of the wife in there.

Ryan: Your kids.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: All the sudden, you’re now yelling at your kids because your selfishness 

is welling up into bitterness in your own heart.

Selena: Yeah. Yeah.

Ryan: And anger and impatience, and you’re not living by the spirit. In 

Galatians 5, you’re not living by the spirit—

Selena: Right.

Ryan: You’re living by the fruits of the flesh.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: So—

Selena: And not to say that you haven’t already done this, but bringing in God’s 

word, I think, is really one of the big ways we can combat and the big 

ways we can be aware, And Hebrews 4:12 is just, “For the word of God 

is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the 

division of soul and spirit, joints and marrow, and discerning the 

thoughts and intentions of the heart.”

Ryan: Mm.

Selena: And then it also says, “And no creature,” verse 13, “is hidden from his 

sight, but all are naked and exposed to the eyes of him to whom we 

must give an account.”

Ryan: Mm…

Selena: And reading that verse knowing who our God is—If you don’t know who 

God is, that could be very scary thing, right? But if we know who God is, 

if we know His nature, He’s a good God full of mercy and grace, again, 

we can’t always know these things without being in His word, you 

know? Spurgeon says, “It’s good to visit other books, but live in your 

Bible.”

Ryan: Love that.

Selena: And that’s been very convicting to me, and also very encouraging, right? 

It’s not just, “Oh, you haven’t been reading your Bible,” but, “Here’s the 

clearway of how you should live.”

Ryan: Hm…

Selena: And being in God’s word, all our motives are brought to light and 

challenged. Our hearts are lovingly called back to repent, to turn back to 

God, away from our motivation that might be sinful or selfish. We’re 

given instruction and hope on how to live in obedience and the benefits 

of it because of Jesus.

Ryan: Mm.

Selena: It’s transformational for us to be in God’s word; it allows the Holy Spirit 

to be at work in us during these times where we might be struggling 

with… wanting things that we can’t have. And why would we want those 

things? And God’s words like, “Here’s why you might want these things, 

and here’s why they might be bad. But look! My word will help you 

through this. I am here with you. I’m not leaving you. I’m giving you 

instruction. There’s hope because of Jesus.”

Ryan: I want to pause there a minute, because you hit every main thing that is 

just like these deep—As I’m going through seminary, right?

Selena: Mm-hm.

Ryan: It’s been incredible to learn about the doctrine of God’s word, the 

doctrine of scripture, the doctrine of God.

Selena: Mm.

[00:24:44] Ryan: Theology proper, as they would say [Selena laughs muffled], where it’s

actual study of God. God’s word is the Bible. That’s what we usually, 

typically, mean by that. But remember, right, it’s John 1:1. “In the 

beginning was the Word, and the Word was God, and the Word was 

with God.” And he sent forth the Word. So, we have the Word

incarnate, in Jesus, being sent forth. We have God, the God of the Bible,

bending low, giving us His special revelation in His word that we have 

now. We have access to the thoughts of God, to the commands of God, 

the way He thinks, the way the way He is. He’s given us that access to 

Him in His word. We see that in the second person of the Trinity, the

Son, who is the Word incarnate. But then we also see the ministry of the 

Word going forward, and He said this through the Holy Spirit. So, we 

have not only the revelation of God, we have the power of God.

Selena: Mm!

Ryan: And we have the person of God himself in Christ, and so many other 

different, rich ways to look at the doc— You know, what this word

means. But…

Selena: I only write these things and say these things because of our 

conversations. [Chuckles]

Ryan: Right.

Selena: And listening to you talking about seminary. [Both chuckle] So, it’s really 

helpful that you’re going to seminary. But it’s not that I just hear that—

Ryan: But these truths are deep.

Selena: They’re deep! Yep. And I think they’re articulating things that I’ve 

always known and believed, but being able to say them clearly in a way 

that is helpful to us and hopefully our listeners is a whole ‘nother 

ballgame.

Ryan: Well, and so the rubber kind of meets the road or so— Okay. So what?

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: Okay. So, the thing is, is we can’t discount the fact that we have God’s 

word in our hands.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: We can’t discount the fact that we are covered by the blood of Christ.

Selena: Mm.

Ryan: God’s word incarnate, in a way that actually enables us to live under 

freedom, and the Holy Spirit illumines it in our hearts and makes it come 

to life so that we can actually live by it. So, we have the instruction, but 

we also have the fuel by which to live it out!

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: And so, when we see these small “g” gods crop up their ugly heads in 

our lives, we can say to God, “Hey.” We can go to Him by the by the 

prompting of the Holy Spirit when we’re filling convicted.

Selena: Mm-hm.

Ryan: “God, I have not loved your wor— I have not gotten into Your—I’m not 

submitting myself to Your word in a way that it’s actually 

transformational in my heart, and it’s showing!”

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: I’m lashing out against my kids. I’m being selfish with my wife. I’m 

being impatient, I’m being bitter, I’m being all these things. Help me 

desire Your word.”

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: And that is an amazing prompting of the Holy Spirit, to pray that. And 

you know what? Anytime I’ve prayed for God to make me hungry or 

thirsty for His word, He fulfills it almost instantaneously.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: I want to say instantaneously, because it’s almost like saying that 

prayer, in itself, is a submission.

Selena: Mm.

Ryan: And in your own heart, saying, “God, help me love You better!”

Selena: Right.

Ryan: “I’m sorry I haven’t loved You well.”

Selena: Right.

Ryan: “You deserve all the love, all the glory, but I’ve taken love for myself.”

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: I’ve taken glory for myself—”

Selena: Well, and, “I’m sorry for not wanting those, wanting You.”

Ryan: In these various ways.”

Selena: You know?

Ryan: Right.

Selena: I’m sorry for wanting— I’m so bent, God, on wanting what I want for 

myself.

Ryan: Right. And that goes to the next one, which you have listed down as the 

“God of control.”

Selena: Right. So, we have—

Ryan: And power. [Laughs]

Selena: Just a quick recap. We have the god of comfort/pleasure, ‘cause we felt 

like those two go hand in hand. And then the God of control and power. And typically, you know, this comes from a place of fear in us, right? There might be some lies we’re believing, or we’re afraid that something might happen, so this just typically produces a lot of anxiety and frustration. And so, we’re trying to control things so that we can maybe avoid that type of anxiety, avoid that frustration, when sometimes God, you know, doesn’t want us to be in [Chuckling] control of everything because we just can’t handle it. I feel like that, to me, trying to control everything produces more [Chuckles] anxiety and frustration, than trying to avoid something, which God’s worked that in my heart, because now I feel like He’s given me more confidence to just face things instead of— It’s like your little toddler, right? You want to make everything nice and happy for them so that they’re nice and happy, but, literally, you can’t control everything. And so, when that object of [Chuckles] something comes against them and they don’t like it, you either can try to appease them or you can try to teach them and walk them through it, right?

Ryan: Or in marriage, when your spouse is not responding in the way that you 

think they should. Right? You’ve done all—

Selena: [Sighs] Finally. I’m glad you’re finally hearing this. [Laughs]

Ryan: [Chuckles] You’ve stepped through the right hoops, right?

Selena: Right. You say the right things. Do the—

Ryan: You’re like, “I gave you this! I gave you that! We went on a date. What 

else do you want from me?!” [Selena laughs] Like, “Give me what I think 

I need!”

Selena: Yeeeah.

Ryan: And now, see, that’s the thing is—

Selena: Well, it can make marriage feel so lonely. It’s transactional, right? It’s 

the whole…

Ryan: Yeah. Well, and I’m trying to exercise a certain level of control and 

power…

Selena: Absolutely.

Ryan: Over your heart. We talked about this a few episodes back; we talked 

about what is in the scope of our own…

Selena: Mm.

Ryan: How has God commissioned us? He’s commissioned us into sharing the 

gospel. He’s not commissioned us into the business of changing hearts.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: He’s commissioned us into discipling each other, and watching as the 

Holy Spirit changes hearts. So, when I do that, and I’m upset because 

you’re not transforming in the way that— “Hey! Get over that 

friendship! We’ve talked about it. Get over it! Why are you still 

agonizing over it?”

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: Or some spouses, they’re upset because their spouse is not responding 

to the gospel.

[00:30:01] Selena: Right.

Ryan: Right? What do I do? We get a lot of messages in that say, “What do I 

do if I’m a believer, but my spouse is not?”

Selena: Mm.

Ryan: “They don’t care about the Bible. They don’t care about church. What 

do I do?”

Selena: Mm!

Ryan: That can kind of well up in us in this way of control and power.

Selena: Right. Right.

Ryan: Like, really, you want to control the outcome.

Selena: “How do I make them believe in Jesus?” [Both chuckle] “How do I make 

them love God?”

Ryan: But it’s a beautiful thing when we have to surrender ourselves to God 

and say, “God, You are in control. You are powerful. I am not. I can trust 

You. I can take joy in that. And I can trust that You’re going to do what’s 

most glorious for You, God.”

Selena: Mm-hm.

Ryan: “And I can watch, and I can be a part of it. And I pray, as your child, as

your son, as your daughter, I pray that You would do X, Y and Z.”

Selena: Right. Right!

Ryan: As your son.

Selena: Yeah!

Ryan: As your daughter.

Selena: And another way that, personally, I think control and power plays out as 

a wife, and this is maybe, again, just me and a personal problem…

Ryan: Oh! Yeah.

Selena: But how we look. Right? We’re obsessing over our appearance, our 

weight, what we look like, what we’re wearing, how are we appearing? 

Because we’re aiming, essentially, to control what people think about 

us, right? Especially, you see that on social media, and… Yeah! Totally 

guilty of it. Not trying to be. Sometimes… I have this [Chuckles

conviction of, like, “I should just take a video of my whole house right 

now [Laughs] and post it. That would be very humbling for me…”

Ryan: Because it’s clean?

Selena: ‘Cause it’s awfully dirty! [Laughs]

Ryan: Oh…

Selena: And show the real-life side of things. [Laughs]

Ryan: That could go either way.

Selena: [Laughing] Sorry!

Ryan: I feel like I’ve lost—

Selena: I was getting there! I was getting there.

Ryan: I’ve lost control over my body, given the number [Selena laughs] of 

bread loaves I’ve eaten over the last four weeks. [Both laughing] Carbs 

are real, folks!

Selena: They really are.

Ryan: Those calories really do pack on fast!

Selena: Right. Right. So, I think that, again, trying to control what people think 

about us is just a game of death [Laughs], really, of your spirit.

Ryan: Right.

Selena: Like, we can’t control what people think about us, and we don’t have to 

because God is good, and our identity is secure in Him! And that is a 

hard bridge to cross sometimes, I think. And I feel like it’s a challenge 

daily, for at least me as a wife. It’s always a question of identity, you 

know? Am I making the right decision as a mom homeschooling our 

kids? Am I making the right decision as a woman and a wife?

Ryan: Mm.

Selena: Am I loving my family well enough by making certain decisions, by not 

making certain decisions? Those kinds of things… And…

Ryan: Mm…

Selena: It also, I think this control and power— and maybe I talked about this in 

the beginning, is just this fear of what if this happens or what if that 

happens? What if my husband doesn’t love me anymore because my… body’s changed? [Laughs] I haven’t actually felt that fear, but I’ve seen it and heard it in other spaces. But what if he doesn’t love me anymore? What if I can’t be the wife that I was? What if my sex drive is down because I’m just— Post-pregnancy hormones are just flailing everywhere.

Ryan: Okay. Yeah. I remember having a conversation before the baby was 

born.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: Thinking…

Selena: ‘Cause I was afraid! I was afraid.

Ryan: Well, and I was afraid!

Selena: The conversation of—

Ryan: I’m like, “What is going to happen to our sex life?” and just being really 

candid.

Selena: Right. We both were, like…

Ryan: It’s like, “When are we going to find time? Are you going to even want 

this?”

Selena: Right.

Ryan: This, pointing to— [Both laughing] Say good-bye to this.

Selena: We are bread-loved body. [Both laughing] Just kidding!

Ryan: My bread body! [Both chuckle]

Selena: I like bread.

Ryan: [Inaudible] a new dieting program.

Selena: I love bread!

Ryan: Instead of Beachbody, it’s going to be Breadbody. [Both laugh] And

everyone’s going to get onboard, ‘cause you know what? The bar’s 

super low. [Selena laughs] It’s super easy. You just eat bread whenever

you want.

Selena: [Laughing] And bread is awesome.

Ryan: And… the butter bread body! [Both laugh]

Selena: That’s the next level. That’s the deluxe package there. [Laughs]

Ryan: It’s the deluxe pac— You gotta pay; it’s $19.99 a month [Selena laughs

for that subscription. Anyway. Don’t pay for it. It’s not worth it.

Selena: We’re getting off topic. [Both laugh]

Ryan: The advice is really clear: eat buttered bread! [Both laugh] Anyway! So, 

yeah! I mean, we had this conversation, like what is going to happen to 

our sex life, and I really wanted to wrap my arms around it and say, or 

my head around it, and say, “Okay, I need you to—”

Selena: “At this point, we’ll do this. This is the plan. Blah, blah, blah.”

Ryan: Right.

Selena: And it’s like…

Ryan: And some of that’s, like, you need to talk through it.

Selena: Yes!

Ryan: You need to have those conversations.

Selena: But again, you can’t control how you’re going to feel after everything.

Ryan: Mm. And well, and it’s at that moment of fear that you can choose to 

trust—

Selena: Or build, yeah.

Ryan: That when that moment comes, you’ll be able to work it out together 

because God is in you and God is working through you.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: And His desire is for you to flourish!

Selena: Right!

Ryan: And so, instead of crafting a golden calf at that moment and trying to 

figure it out myself, and saying, “Well, fine! I’m just going to do 

whatever I want, and I’m going to look online and I’m going to satisfy 

my sexual needs some other way!” That’s crafting a golden calf.

Selena: Mm.

Ryan: And, basically, taking it into your own hands. Sorry for the pun. [Laughs]

Selena: Oh, my.

Ryan: It was taking it— controlling it [Laughing] yourself! Argh! I’m just going 

to stop! [Selena chuckles] But the point I’m trying to make is that you 

have to trust. Instead, you have to trust in this God that has proven 

Himself faithful.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: Time and time again.

Selena: Absolutely.

Ryan: And that your marriage is not going to fall apart as you… as you entrust 

it into His hands.

[00:34:58] Selena: You can’t anticipate every moment afterwards, right? And that’s my 

biggest fault. Ryan’ll tell you that I try to anticipate way too much

because I want to control. Why? Because I’m afraid, because I don’t 

want to deal with… the frustration or the anxiety of my kid screaming, 

or us being disconnected sexually.

Ryan: Mm.

Selena: I don’t want to deal with that. So, I want to have a plan, I want to get it 

taken care of. But it comes from this underlying sense, which if I’m

reading the Bible, right, and it’s looking at my heart, it’s helping me 

discern through things. It’s because I’m afraid. It’s because I’m afraid of 

the disconnection, I’m afraid of the arguments, I’m afraid of our 

relationship being changed and altered. And I don’t want that. Like, I 

love what we have, but God’s like, “That’s great! But I have more for 

you,” right? And the more, it’s going to take some stretching.

Ryan: Mm.

Selena: It’s going to take some discomfort, and it’s good! It’s okay. It’s just going 

against some of your sin nature. And in a sense, there is some stuff 

that’s not of God and He’s calling us out of that.

Ryan: Yeah, and that’s trust, right? And any time you’re heading around a 

bend where you don’t know what’s going to be there—

Selena: Right.

Ryan: You have to really trust that God is guiding you.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: And, actually, is there. I think one area where control really shows up as 

a small “g” god is in, like you mentioned earlier, but the order of our 

house, right?

Selena: Mm.

Ryan: With two little ones running around, five and three, they love making 

messes. They love playing. They don’t love picking up messes. They 

don’t love working. [Selena giggles] And so, as a dad, I’m like…

Selena: Mm. Just like us, huh? Pleasure and comfort. [Both laugh]

Ryan: The little hedonists! They just want to do what’s fun all the time. They 

want to eat only things that tastes good all the time.

Selena: Of course. Of course.

Ryan: And of course, that’s just sugar, basically. And so, I want to control 

them.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: I want to control their hearts. I want to control their behavior.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: And what happens if we do that without the gospel at the center?

Selena: Yeah! Our discipline is not…

Ryan: Our discipline is heavy-handed.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: We rule with an iron fist.

Selena: You’re not teaching; you’re telling.

Ryan: We break the spirit.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: We end up being strict and not just loving.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: Lovingly correcting them, but just being strict. And so, we’re getting 

outside of the purview of marriage here, but I’m just saying as a couple 

dealing with that has really exposed in us this desire for control and for 

power…

Selena: Because we want things to be a certain way.

Ryan: Mm-hm.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: Mm-hm.

Selena: Yeah! I agree. So!

Ryan: Alright. There’s a good verse that you brought up.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: Was Psalm 147.

Selena: Yeah. Psalm 147 is just, “His delight is not in the strength of the horse, 

nor his pleasure in the legs of a man, but the LORD takes pleasure in 

those who fear him, in those who hope in his steadfast love.” And I 

feel like that just brings some assurance.

Ryan: Mm.

Selena: You know? He’s not impressed by what we can do, but He really takes 

pleasure in those that fear Him, so, that acknowledge who He is, that 

are in wonder, not afraid of God, but this respect! This awe of who He 

is, and they hope in His love, His steadfast love.

Ryan: Yeah.

Selena: This love that never gets tired of our questions, of our own hedonism, of 

our own failure to realize who He is and what He wants for us.

Ryan: Yeah.

Selena: But He delights in those who fear Him.

Ryan: This reminded me of a verse that I have on the wall here.

Selena: Don’t take control.

Ryan: Sorry. Did I just take control?

Selena: Sorry. It’s ok. No. [Both chuckle] Go for it!

Ryan: I thought you were saying I took control, and you’re—

Selena: No. [Laughs]

Ryan: [Laughing] And you were calling me out. Jeremiah 9:23, 24. “Thus says 

the LORD: ‘Let not the wise man boast in his wisdom, let not the mighty 

man boast in his might, let not the rich man boast in his riches.’” I 

wanted to boast in all three of those things [Selena laughs], by the way! 

I’m just going to say it.

Selena: Thanks. I’m glad you’re saying that.

Ryan: My own brain, my own brawn, and my own bank account. [Both laugh] I 

wanted to!

Selena: Your bread brawn? [Both laugh]

Ryan: My bready body, people! [Selena laughing] Go breadbody.com! [Ryan 

laughs briefly] But, “‘Let not the rich man boast in his riches, but,’” 

here’s the “but” statement, okay? “‘But let him who boasts boast in this, 

that he understands and knows me, that I am the LORD who prac—’” 

And that “LORD” is the Tetragrammaton, which is the YHWH

Selena: Hello!

Ryan: Which is His actual name. Right?

Selena: Tip: the capital, all caps LORD.

Ryan: Which is His most proper name. Right?

Selena: L-O-R-D, capital L-O-R-D.

Ryan: Yeah. “‘Who practices steadfast love, justice, and righteousness in the 

earth. For in these things I delight, declares the LORD.’” So, let us boast 

in knowing Him!

Selena: That would have been a good one, because the next God is the God of 

pride and status. So…

Ryan: Hilarious. [Exhales]

Selena: Both seen, there it is. That was a good transition, babe. Way to go!

Ryan: You know what?

Selena: Way to go! [Laughs]

Ryan: I’m very wise. [Ryan chuckles and Selena laughs] I’m very wise.

Selena: Annnd…

Ryan: Oh, shoot! [Laughs]

Selena: Just boasting! That was…

Ryan: [Laughing] Just kidding.

Selena: Yes. But the god of status/pride, we feel like there’s a lot of overlap, and 

it’s an easy progression from control, right, to pride? We got the right 

house, we got the right car, we got our kids in the right school, or we’re 

doing the right thing home-schooling, whatever; there can be a lot of 

pride in all of those areas. It really is just questioning our identity. Like, 

where—?

Ryan: Mm.

Selena: What are we putting our identity in? Who are we putting it in?

Ryan: When are we putting it in? Because—

Selena: [Chuckles] Exactly! There it is.

Ryan: It’s here and now is what we want—

Selena: There it is!

Ryan: We want to see it play out here and now.

Selena: Mm-hm.

[00:39:55] Ryan: I want to see the status here and now, when our status when we’re not 

primarily American citizens, we’re not primarily Australian citizens, 

we’re not a citizen of some worldly power.

Selena: Mm.

Ryan: We’re citizens of a heavenly kingdom.

Selena: Mm-hm.

Ryan: And so, if our status is in that, and our identity is heavenly kingdom 

citizens.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: Of people adopted into God’s family, that’s a there and then thing.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: That’s a, “Already, but not yet.”

Selena: Yep.

Ryan: Well, I had this came up in my own heart today as I was thinking 

through some of the family stuff we’re going through. We haven’t 

shared that, but there’s some family stuff going on; we had a meeting 

earlier this week that was to that end. And I got to thinking… It made 

me really realize that I can’t want things to be resolved in a way that 

gives me benefits here and now; I need to be thinking about there and 

then in terms of already, but not yet.

Selena: Mm!

Ryan: God’s plan, God’s goodness and His name.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: And let us boast in this! Right?

Selena: Right.

Ryan: That same thing that…

Selena: Jeremiah [Inaudible]. Yeah.

Ryan: That we understand and know God.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: So, we— Sorry. I want to flesh this out a little bit more, that we 

understand that we have been made privy to the person of God, and 

what He wills here on earth. That’s an amazing thing! He loves with 

steadfast love and wisdom and all these things. But we understand Him, 

but we also know Him in that we just don’t know Him in our heads, but 

we know Him personally.

Selena: Mm!

Ryan: There is, in the Spanish language, there’s two verbs for “to know.” 

There’s “saber” and “conocer,” I think.

Selena: Mm-hm.

Ryan: Sorry! I’m not trying to be like Beto, whatever, but that guy who would 

speak in Spanish in the debates. But one is to know a fact; the other is 

to know relationally a person.

Selena: Mm!

Ryan: And I feel like that’s a distinction that can be made here.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: That I know God in my head, I know His ways, but I also know Him 

personally. Let us boast in that, and let the status and all those things 

that we want, let those fall at the feet of knowing God.

Selena: Right. And how does this area affect our marriage? Because I feel like He 

can very much be—

Ryan: Yeah.

Selena: Just a status and pride, like a personal thing. Which it can be!

Ryan: Good question.

Selena: And it can definitely clash within our marriage, if we want different 

things and we desire, and we want to take pride in having certain things, 

you know? If a wife wants a— [Exhales] Argh. I hate to bash wives. 

We’re not going to—But if you have this high—

Ryan: Just put “husband” in there. [Both chuckle]

Selena: If you have a high standard of—Not high. If you want things that are out 

of your price range—

Ryan: If you want a bread body. Oh, sorry! [Both laugh]

Selena: No, I’m just saying, if we’re wanting things for the wrong reasons, it’s 

going to create a lot of tension within our marriage, because I feel like 

you’re good at that. Early on in our marriage, I’d be like, “Wow!” Oh, 

here’s a perfect example. When I was a young life leader in California, 

and we got back from camp, and I was leading campaigners for the first 

time, I was like, “Ryan, we’ve got to have a bigger house. I’ve got 12 

girls. We are in a two-bedroom apartment. Half of these girls live in 

humongous houses in gated communities, like super wealthy area of the 

desert, and we have this little apartment,” which and it was a great 

apartment. And I’m like, “It’s just not big enough! We need to start 

looking at houses. We need to…” Like, all this fear, all of this, you know, 

discomfort of what these high school girls [Giggles] were going to think 

about my apartment as an adult, right, just came into play. And it was 

because I felt like it was a reflection of my identity, right? We can’t 

afford…

Ryan: Interesting.

Selena: Or we can’t have the right thing. And when in all reality, when we had 

campaigners and we ate dinner together, and we talked, and I made 

them all put their phones face down in front of us so that nobody had 

their phones on them. That relationship, those conversations, that 

community was what God used to really fulfill them, and for us to know 

who He was together. It wasn’t about my house. We could have met at, 

which we did even sometimes, like at Starbucks, or we met at—

Ryan: They don’t care.

Selena: They don’t care!

Ryan: They don’t care…

Selena: Yeah. And even if—

Ryan: Only you cared. [Chuckles] Only we cared.

Selena: Well, only I cared, but they do care at some level outside of Christ. Like, 

they were caring about the wrong things.

Ryan: Right.

Selena: And I felt like God was like, “Hey, let me use this area of your life to 

show them that those things don’t matter as much as I want their 

hearts, I want their lives, I want to be in relationship with them, and 

that is the important thing here.” It’s not about what they have, 

although it’s okay to have things, but it’s not about what you have, it’s 

about who you are. Right?

Ryan: Yeah. Actually, I was just reading. I’m not going to be able to find it, but I 

was just reading an article. Gospel Coalition does these series. It’s called 

Thorn and Thistle, I think?

Selena: Hm.

Ryan: And they asked a question. I meant to share it with you. I apologize. But 

they ask the question, and it’s like should I move closer to the church, or 

is it okay to move further away from the church if it means I can have a 

bigger house?

Selena: Right. Geographically. Yeah.

Ryan: Yeah. And they use an example of somebody who, you know, they had 

this kind of dilemma in that they would move away, across the freeway, 

but it was basically a world apart because of the way the geography 

worked.

Selena: Mm-hm.

Ryan: And the questions they were asking were really positive, and they’re 

saying basically re-evaluate your definition of hospitality.

Selena: Hm.

Ryan: And recalibrate it with the Bible’s definition of hospitality. Because we 

often think some, like what you said, is, “Well, we can’t have ministry 

happen until we have this perfect arena for which the hospitality can 

finally blossom into everything it should be.” No! And he’s basically 

saying you don’t need—First off, he said Americans, second to 

Australians, have more square footage per home than anyone else in 

the world.

[00:45:08] Selena: Right.

Ryan: So, having a big house in the US is like a mansion by every other 

standard.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: Whereas you might feel like it’s average.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: And so, it’s basically recalibrating that expectation of what it means to 

love people and to—I want to get back to the point, status and pride, is 

it comes back around to something that’s not rooted in what you think 

it’s rooted in.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: You think, “Oh, we need this thing so that we can have our identity.”

Selena: Well, and basically hide, I think, was some of it.

Ryan: Yeah.

Selena: I wanted to hide our financial status.

Ryan: Sure.

Selena: Right?

Ryan: Which I kid you not, we had literally hundreds [Selena chuckles], maybe 

even dozens of dollars [Selena laughs] saved in the bank at any 

moment!

Selena: Right. Which is why transparency is a huge thing, and we talk a lot about 

that all the time [Ryan laughs], on the Fierce Marriage podcast. [Both 

chuckling] We are very transparent.

Ryan: Yeah.

Selena: But I think that is a way to combat and to live in the light, right? God 

calls us to live in the light. Why? Because then it’s not about us, it’s all 

about Him. And it’s all about who He is in our lives and not what we’ve 

built. Right?

Ryan: Mm.

Selena: So, one of the verses that has been—One of our mentor’s kind of sent 

us this and was just like congratulating us on having a baby. It was 

Psalm 127. [Clears throat] Excuse me. And in particular it was the one 

about children are our heritage, they’re a blessing. But if you read Psalm 

127, which I encourage everyone, it’s five verses, it’s very reassuring to 

me as a wife, as someone who doesn’t have to have it all together, who 

doesn’t have to have the right house, the right everything, but is really 

like learning; I really feel like I’m sitting at the feet of God constantly 

failing and learning who God is and what He’s at work doing. And I’ll just 

read the verses. “Unless the LORD builds the house, those who build it 

labor in vain. Unless the LORD watches over the city, the watchman 

stays awake in vain. It is in vain that you rise up early and go late to rest, 

eating the bread of anxious toil; for he gives to his beloved sleep. 

Behold, children are a heritage from the LORD, the fruit of the womb a 

reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior are the children of one’s 

youth. Blessed is the man who fills his quiver with them! He shall not be 

put to shame when he speaks with his enemies in the gate.” So, there’s 

a lot there.

Ryan: Yeah.

Selena: Talking about children and being a heritage and blessings. And I guess 

the first couple verses are really what have spoken to my heart in this 

time of kind of feeling like our world’s being shaken in a lot of ways.

Ryan: Oh, yeah.

Selena: Just with a new baby, and finishing a book, and all of these things in our

home, I guess, for me. God’s just reminding me unless He’s building 

this house, we’re doing stuff in vain. Unless He is the one that we are— 

Not even we! It’s all about Him, right?

Ryan: Yeah.

Selena: So, unless He’s watching over the city, we stay awake in vain. If I stay up 

late and I wake up early to try to do all these things, if it’s not, you 

know, sort of God leading this, and He’s not the head of this household, 

then it’s all in vain. It’s all about—

Ryan: Right.

Selena: Me and my status and my pride and the things that I want versus, you 

know, this verse is saying God’s in control. He is at work.

Ryan: Yeah.

Selena: Sleep. Rest. Enjoy your children. Teach them.

Ryan: Yeah. And that, I think, comes down to boasting in our own kind of 

wisdom.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: As that Jeremiah passage says. Like, we think that we can just somehow 

craft the house and have the house stand on its own because we are 

without need of God himself.

Selena: Mm.

Ryan: And this verse is basically saying no! Like, you can do whatever, 

you can build a house, you can—It’s not a verse about architecture. 

[Chuckles]

Selena: Right.

Ryan: It’s a verse about trusting that God is the reason that anything is 

sustained.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: And acknowledging that humbly.

Selena: Mm-hm.

Ryan: So, how does this work in marri—Again, bringing it back around to 

marriage. We talked about sex a little bit. We talked about finance a 

little bit. Talking about communication.

Selena: Mm-hm.

Ryan: A lot of times in our relationship early on, I would talk down to you in a 

way that I’m very ashamed of, I think now, and I think I’ve learned to 

not do it as often.

Selena: Learning. [Both laugh] Just a bit.

Ryan: So, but like—

Selena: Just kidding. That—[Chuckles]

Ryan: Talking down, and being dismissive of each other, or…

Selena: Yeah, yeah.

Ryan: And what is that, if not boasting in your own wisdom?

Selena: Sure.

Ryan: What is that, if you’re thinking that if I can just use the right words, or

I’m so smart that I don’t have to really, like…

Selena: I’m better arguing, and I can…

Ryan: Yeah. And so, I think trusting in the Lord is really humbling and puts you 

in a place of, like, the priority is to love my wife well, not to be right in 

this conversation.

Selena: Mm…

Ryan: Or to listen well—

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: And not get to a solution.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: Or to make sure she feels loved—

Selena: Right.

Ryan: And not just give her action steps.

Selena: Right!

Ryan: Right?

Selena: Right.

Ryan: Those are the roots of communication. Or flip it on the other end.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: Transparency in communication.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: That, in my grand wisdom, I won’t tell you this because I’m afraid it’ll 

hurt you.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: Right? Every TV show you’ve ever watched always has a, “I didn’t tell 

you ‘cause I wanted to protect you.”

Selena: Right.

[00:49:56] Ryan: Like how B.S. is that? [Both chuckles] Because it’s like, you think that 

you can just… You know better, so why not just come out with it? Well, 

of course, that would mean there’s no drama in the TV show. [Both 

chuckle] But it also creates more drama in your life If you think, “I’m not 

going to tell you about my addiction because, in my wisdom, I think it’ll 

hurt you and It’ll hurt our marriage. And I’m ashamed, also.”

Selena: Right. And God’s saying, “Live in the light!”

Ryan: Because He is God and I am not I can live humbly before Him. And if He 

if he is the goal…

Selena: Right.

Ryan: If he is my affection, that I want to get closer to Him, then that sin is 

getting in the way.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: I need to get it out of my life.

Selena: Woah.

Ryan: Which means, confess to Him, confess to each other. Repent.

Selena: And it’s this whole idea of trust, right? So, we’re talking about how can 

we really worship God in our marriage. How can we tangibly worship 

God in our marriage?

Ryan: Mm.

Selena: And you’ve heard these three things, they’ve just been threaded 

through our conversation, is true repentance, and submission and 

surrender, and then trust. Right? So, we’re trusting who God is beyond 

what we think.

Ryan: That’s good.

Selena: How much the bomb is going to drop, and how big the blast is going to 

be, right? We’re trusting Him.

Ryan: Mm.

Selena: Knowing that these things are going to happen, but trusting that He is 

the God of hearts and He’s—not God of hearts. He is the God of our 

hearts.

Ryan: That changes hearts.

Selena: Changes hearts. He’s one that we can trust. It’s the true repentance of 

coming to God, saying, “I’m sorry for not wanting You! I’m so prone to 

wanting other things. Help me God! I believe You’re good and merciful. 

Help my unbelief.” It’s repenting to our spouse.

Ryan: Mm.

Selena: It’s going to our community, saying, “Help me, help us, in 

worshipping these little gods. I need your help to destroy them. I need 

your help to not allow them to come back into my life.” It’s submission! 

Surrendering to God in those instances, saying, “God, I want Your way. I 

don’t know…”

Ryan: Yeah.

Selena: “I don’t know what You think about this. I need to read my Bible more,” 

like…

Ryan: Eww. [Selena laughs] Well, you’re surrendering yourself, saying, “I can’t 

figure this out.”

Selena: To know His will.

Ryan: “I’m not going to boast of my wisdom. I’m going to boast in knowing 

You.”

Selena: Yeah! Know Him.

Ryan: Yeah.

Selena: And then you know where He stands on things like your pleasure, like 

your riches, like your status, like your identity. He roots those all in His 

word.

Ryan: And here’s the thing is word! God wants to give you more pleasure than 

you could ever imagine, and in Him.

Selena: Right. Mm-hm.

Ryan: He wants to give you more status than you could ever earn on your own

in Him.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: He wants to give you more riches than you could ever earn on your own 

in Him.

Selena: Right. Right.

Ryan: And this is not a prosperity thing. This is, in Him, there is all these 

things—

Selena: Right.

Ryan: That everything else pales in comparison. He’s giving you Himself.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: And that comes from a place of submitting and surrendering.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: Which is why you see so many [Chuckling] submitted, surrendered, like 

people in the church are not people that have it together.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: They’re people that oftentimes, they’ve just for whatever reason they’re 

in a weaker status in a lot of cases.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: I don’t want to get into the nuances of that. But anyway, we need to 

surrender our hearts, all that kind of stuff.

Selena: Right. And we can ask the Holy Spirit to help us. He is there! He’s our 

counselor to help lead us, to help us submit, to help us know how to 

walk humbly in the things of God. And then trusting him, trusting God, 

trusting our Father, the Holy Spirit, trusting what Jesus did on the cross, 

trusting God’s way is the better. It is the best way to live. Again, when 

and if bombs need to be dropped, we’re going to trust that after the 

blast, God is going to help us through those messes, through that hurt 

and pain.

Ryan: Mm.

Selena: He is the god of he—

Ryan: And then you’re talking through if there’s a confession or something. 

Yeah.

Selena: Right! Right.

Ryan: Yeah.

Selena: Or anything that you’re confronting, like with your pri— All of these 

little gods, they come with these blugga—baggage. [Chuckles] I’m trying 

to think of the word! They come with baggage! They come with things 

that need to be broken and destroyed. And when those things are 

broken and destroyed, no doubt, there’s going to be some aftermath. It 

may be big or small, but it’s requiring confrontation with things that you 

don’t want to be confronted with, I feel like, and God says don’t fear. 

Confidently, and with your trust in Me, go face those things. Let’s face 

them together.”

Ryan: Okay.

Selena: “Don’t be afraid.”

Ryan: So, speaking of facing those things. Couple’s conversation challenge.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: Okay. So, these— Well, I’m going to recap these three, I think, 

categories of gods that we’ve talked about, these small “g” gods in our 

lives.

Selena: Mm-hm.

Ryan: Okay. We’re using that term in an analogous sort of way, right?

Selena: Mm-hm.

Ryan: They’re not literal deities, small “d” deities, but they are things that we

tend to worship. So, talk about each one of these areas. This is the 

conversation challenge! Talk about each one of these areas together. 

Maybe just write them down!

Selena: Mm-hm.

Ryan: As I recap here, and then you can talk about how maybe repentance 

needs to play a role.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: And how surrender and trust need to play roles.

Selena: Yeah.

Ryan: In each area in your lives. Okay? And just be honest with each other. 

Okay. So, the first category is comfort and pleasure, the god of comfort 

and pleasure. The second one is the god of control and power. And the 

third one is the god of status or pride. Okay. So, talk through each one 

of those—

Selena: Mm-hm.

Ryan: With your husband, with your wife. Maybe write down a few things and 

how can maybe you can ask God to bring you around to a more 

sanctified posture in those areas.

Selena: Right. Right.

Ryan: And where you’re trusting him more often.

Selena: Yes.

Ryan: So, talk about repentance, talk about surrender, talk about trust.

Selena: Right.

Ryan: Sound good?

Selena: Sounds good!

Ryan: All right. Little Louisa’s doing pretty well!

Selena: Yeah! She just starting to wriggle a little bit, so…

[00:55:00] Ryan: Okay!

Selena: We got to wrap this up!

Ryan: Why don’t you go grab her? Is she wiggling? Do you want to grab her?

Selena: No, she’s good.

Ryan: Okay. Well…

Selena: I always want to grab her! I love my baby.

Ryan: So, I want to plug this real fast, again. Patreon. If you feel called to be a 

partner with us and with our family and the people that we work 

alongside, we’d be honored for you to pray over that. Pray for that 

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patrons!

Selena: Mm.

Ryan: It means the world. Thank you if you’re just even praying about it. 

Don’t feel bad or guilty! Just know that we’re thankful for you, listener, 

in general. [Selena chuckles] And if you feel called, we’re still thankful 

for you in these ways.

Selena: Mm-hm.

Ryan: And then, if you’re looking for resources, we do have a bunch of books. 

If you’re new to the Fierce Marriage podcast, go to

shop.fiercemarriage.com; there’s a ton of resources there.

Selena: Mm.

Ryan: Well, not a ton. There’s, I think, six different books, there’s one e-

course, there’s some fierce rings!

Selena: Feels like a ton! [Both laugh] Lots of writing!

Ryan: It feels like it’s taken a lot of work to get there! [Selena laughs] Anyway! 

Let me say a prayer for us. And then we’ll go on. What’s anyway?

Selena: Nothing. I’ll tell you later.

Ryan: [Laughing] Okay.

Selena: Okay.

[00:56:05] Ryan: I don’t know. When you laugh, it makes me uneasy. [Both laugh]

 

Lord, I thank You for just the gift that it is to know You and to boast in 

knowing You, and to boast in understanding You, Lord. I pray that You 

would just make Your word come to life in our hearts and in our minds 

and in our lives. God, may it affect our hearts, change our minds, and be 

implemented faithfully in our lives.

 

God, I pray for the fierce husbands and the fierce wives listening to this. 

I pray that if You’ve stirred something in them, I pray right now You 

would stir in them hope in Your gospel, hope in the fact that You love 

him or her, hope in the fact that You have not abandoned him or her. 

And I pray that You’d help them with wisdom and with wise counsel and 

through Your word, help them move forward. Holy Spirit, just comfort 

them and guide those fierce couples, Lord.

 

In Jesus name, and I thank You for the ability to talk about You here on 

this podcast. I thank You for the new baby in the Frederick household. 

Thank You that she’s healthy and strong. And anyway! God, thank You 

so much just for Your Grace.

 

In Jesus name, amen!

Selena: Amen.

Ryan: All right! This, ladies and gentlemen, this has been a lot of fun. This 

episode is!

Selena: In the can!

Ryan: And we will see you in about seven days! Until then…

Selena: Stay fierce!

[00:57:25] *Ending Sequence*

[00:57:44] Podcast ends.

PODCAST NOTES

  • [00:10:01]
    • Scripture reference: Exodus 20:3, ESV
    • Scripture reference: Exodus 32:1, paraphrase, ESV
    • Scripture reference: Exodus 32:2-5, paraphrase, ESV
  • [00:14:40]
    • Scripture reference: Romans 1:18-20, paraphrase with added emphasis, ESV
  • [00:19:59]
    • Scripture reference: Hebrews 4:12, paraphrase, ESV
    • Scripture reference: Hebrews 4:13, paraphrase, ESV
    • Information on Charles Haddon Spurgeon:
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    • Scripture reference: John 1:1, paraphrase, ESV
  • [00:34:58]
    • Scripture reference: Psalm 147:10-11, ESV
    • Scripture reference: Jeremiah 9:23-24, ESV
  • [00:39:55]
  • [00:45:08]
    • Scripture reference: Psalm 127:1-5, ESV

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